[MilesHackett]

[Warning: This post has excessive venting and possibly bitching.]


Today I think I hit critical mass in terms of frustration with my life and its direction, or its lackthereof. I finished university officially last september, have been working part-time at a grocery store since November, and I feel like I am going nowhere.

Every day I look online for jobs related to my degree (mostly jobs relating to English) and I still do not qualify on a technical level for any of the positions I am interested in, in my region. It's looking more and more like I am going to have to add to my debt and go to college for a year program.

The problem with this is that there's no security in my most passionate field of study (film). If I go to college for the program I'm interested in, I'll pick up technical skills and I'll get 5 weeks of placement in a film house, which would be cool, but there's no guarantee that I'd be able to ascertain a job.

Aside from my option of going back to school, which I'd prefer not to do, given how much debt I've accrued in the past four years, there's the option of moving to a larger city (like Toronto or Ottawa). Most of the jobs I have come across related to English have been in these two locations, and the city life does appeal to me -- even though I would be moving away from almost everyone I know (especially if I end up in Ottawa).

I don't know if it's just the weather today, or just an accumulation of circumstances in my current life, but I just feel completely and utterly lost. I feel like the time is running out on making a decision and I am scrambling to figure out what it is I want to do. I know I'm only 23, but I want to get my life rolling, I just don't know in which direction.

Do any of the older members here have advice for how to make such an important decision? I'd love to hear it.



/rant